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To more positivity, and less negativity! 2011 *gameface on*

Ate Lileth's blog is very timely! I am truly inspired! I might as well print this. I need a reminder, I have a problem with my photographic memory. hihi.
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I was planning to create a NY’s resolution but when I came across Rajo Laurel’s blog, I decided that these 40 simple steps would be my mantras for 2011 instead.
1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Buy a lock if you have to.
3. Record your late night shows and get more sleep.
4. When you wake up in the morning, complete the following statement,
“My purpose is to____ today.”
5. Live with the 3 E’s – – Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
6. Watch more movies, play more games and read more books than you did in 2010.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, tai chi, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend more time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Clear your clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.
14. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
15. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
16. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid.
17. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the energy vampires away.
18. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
20. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
23. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
24. Burn the candles, use the nice bed sheets, Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: “In five years, will this matter?”
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. So stop complaining about the weather, the job, the rents etc., etc.
31. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
32. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
33. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
34. The best is yet to come.
35. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
36. Do the right thing!
37. Call your family often.
38. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements:
“I am thankful for ___.” Today I accomplished ____.
39. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
40. Enjoy the ride.. Remember that this is not Disney World and you certainly don’t want a fast pass. You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.

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I HATE YOU!!!

=(

NO TALK, NO MISTAKE. I know.


BUT fck, after a long long time, you're the only guy that's making me go GaGa again. What now?!


I HATE YOU! 


And know what?! SOME OTHER GUY  might even give me those fuckin lilies which make it twice as sad and twice as less special, because he's NOT you. :(

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MERRY CHRISTMAS!


Hey! Look! The baby me wants to wish you a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

If you're going to ask me why I used my baby self. The answer is WALA LANG. CUTE KO EH! CHOS. Kidding aside, I wanna reminisce My Christmas Days from the past--visiting Ninongs and Ninangs around Bulacan, staying in Paltao with the Fajardos, and going home to the Mercados. There were so many toys and games, and foood--twas a whole wrap of joy and fun! It was indeed a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS! 

The only sucky things (THAT) time were my itchy dress, my suplada attitude, and my aginaldos going all to Nanay. She'd excuse, "Bata ka pa. Ang mga bata bawal maghawak ng pera. At magkano yang damit mo? Sakto lang sa napamaskuhan mo." And I thought to myself, did I ever ask you to buy me this itchy dress, if I know you did this on purpose--pinagkakitaan mo ako, Nanay! I actually did all the work for her. Smiling, and "blessing" to every oldies is hard work. Plus, being cute is another thing! Tapos, wala man lang akong talent fee?! So yeah, every Christmas, I ended up going to bed with a long face and tears in the eyes. BUT, at least there was a real celebration that's happened. :D

When I got older, things changed. There were no more going visiting Ninongs and Ninangs around Bulacan. Though we still go to Paltao, it wasn't as fun as when we were younger--I do not know if puberty has something to do about it. And when we go home, the only lights on are the ones usually lighted on normal days. And instead of playing Bingo with the rest of the gang, we head straight to bed and if we are in the mood the four of us talk of what's happening in our lives. Updating, you know.


This year, I am hoping for a better celebration of the birth of Christ. We, Fajardos, are going to heat up Paltao with our hot red attire (srsly, I'd rather spend Christmas day in Taal).

Having no good food and gifts/aginaldos are not going to stop me from having fun! Mahirap na ang buhay, naiintindihan ko. But they are not the essence of a true celebration of Christmas--it's about being one with your family in welcoming the Son of God in your lives. Lezz enjoy the season and HAVE FUN!:)  

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Maybe I am just looking for a Holiday Romance

YOU. I am sorry that the only time we can talk is every vacation.
YOU. I am sorry that I pay you no attention whenever I'm too busy at school.
YOU. I am sorry that I did not reply to your messages when you were so worried about me.
YOU. I am sorry that I only come to you when I do not have anything to do.
YOU. I am sorry that I am missing you right now.
YOU. I am sorry that I do not know exactly what I'm feeling for you.
YOU. I am sorry that I hurt you many times over and I never learned.

Now, if you are trying to get back on me, sorry, I am fragile--I break down easily and you wouldn't enjoy crushing me.

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Habol-Bus Gang

Thanks Google!

Isa sa pinaka-ayaw kong feeling sa mundo ay ang feeling ng pagluwas ng sobrang aga!

Una. Ayokong gumigising ng sobrang aga kasi late ako natutulog.
Pangalawa. Mahirap magcommute ng walang araw kahit na umaga na.

Kaso may mga pagkakataon talagang wala kang choice kundi gawin yun.

Isang umaga, aalis na ako para pumasok sa 7am class ko. Buti na lang in the middle of the week kaya masmadaling sumakay ng bus.

Sakto! Pagbaba ko ng jeep...

Mukhang kilala na ko ni Manong Barker

Barker: Oh. Ayun bus na Cubao nakahinto.

Ako naman, YES! Di ko na kailangan maghintay At ES pa! Naiz! Mukhang sinuswerte talaga ako! PERO...

Nung andun na ako sa bandang likod ng bus biglang umandar. Sa loob ng.05 millisecond inisip ko kung hahabulin ko o magiintay ako. Pinili kong habulin. Kaya ayun, hinabol ko!

Feeling San Chai ako ng Meteor Garden. Pero wala akong Dao Ming Zu na hinabol sa bus at wala akong dala-dalang oranges, at hindi ako tangang nadapa!

Yes! Nakasakay ako. Salamat sa flats ko galing Avon at sa mga lalaking sumigaw para huminto ang bus. :) 

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Tagaytay with my Bros

I had only been to Tagaytay once during a field trip. It was way back elementary. I can't remember anything that made that field trip memorable except for the souvenirs I bought and the Palace in the Sky (i remember).


Aba'y akalain mong makakabalik pala ulit ako dun sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon!

Nov. 12, 2010. 3:00pm

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Samuel Rios: Pwede ba kayo Tagaytay ngayon?

Janina talking to Alix

Janina: Alix, game ka Tagaytay? Now after ng meeting.
Alix: e I have to study for Eco pa... Uwi rin ba? Til what time?
Janina: Ok, I'll ask.

Janina replying to Kuya Sam

Janina: Kuya, mga what time raw tayo makakauwi? Sinu-sino? What time ba tayo alis?
Samuel Rios: Pwede ba kayo ng 4? Tayo lang, kasama si Adrian. Wala pa siguro 10 nakabalik na tayo UST.

Janina told Alix Kuya Sam's reply

Alix: E you are going to teach me Eco when we get back.
Janina: Sure! Yun lang pala eh!

Janina replying to Kuya Sam

Janina: Kuya Sam, we're going!

So let the spontaneous Tagaytay trip begin!

The traffic on our way to Taguig to pick up Kuya Adrian is breaking our heads and patience, especially Kuya A's.

Kuya A: Sam, asan na ba kayo?!
Sam: Dito na sa McKinley Hill

Actually, we were just about to pass Resorts World. LOL

After the long wait, we finally arrived at Kuya A's workplace, then head straight to our destination. But our luck looks like its having its toll--the highway doesn't even an inch like a highway--HEAVY TRAFFIC!

To kill time, we had this Heart Talks 101 with Kuya A being the presider. Everything he told us really worked for me, especially the not-to-put-my-arm-up-when-a-man-is-sitting-beside-me advice. Our two Kuyas even have evaluation of me and Alix

Kuya A: Ikaw Alix, napapansin ko bukaka ka nang bukaka. Hindi maganda yon.
Kuya S: Oo nga, Alix!
Kuya A: Ikaw naman Janina para kang bata. Kaya madali kang maloko! Parang gustung-gusto mo pa naglalaro ng Barbie!
Kuya S: Masyado kang friendly, ineng. Baka di mo alam natatake advantage ka na!

The traffic made us hungry so we stopped in Petron to have a snack. (Oh! I remember highschool retreat!) After the McDo treat, we were ready to go back to our road trip/food partey.

Kuya Sam seems to be so familiar with all the shortcuts around Tagaytay, because we drove into this dark subdivision that doesnt even look like a subdivision--the roads are like pilapil in Pulo (the place we usually go for biking).

Kuya Sam was horsing around scarring me and Alix. He was turning off the lights and opening the window while we were passing through the pilapil road. Here's the thing: beside us was a cemetery. :/ But I wasn't scared of seeing ghosts at all (though, I'm afraid that if ever I'd see one it would follow me back home) because there's four of us and the more the braver I am. What scares me is the "unexpected" or what you call accident. I had once before and I don't wanna relive the scenes again, nor have my parents fetch me up in a hospital without even knowing I was going to Tagaytay. That would be a DOUBLE WHAMMY for me!

Photo credits to the person who posted this in Google. Tagaytay's Carlos' Pizza

The real good thing about going out with Kuya Sam (besides the company) is the FREE FOOD. I am going to have a separate blog about the CHICKEN CONTEST.

We arrived in Carlos' Pizza past nine. So Alix had no choice but to sleepover at my dorm. Anyways, we had pizza (obviously) and buffalo chicken for our late dinner. I am still full from the McDo treat but I managed to eat two slices of pizza and one buffalo chicken and my other company finished the rest.

After dinner, we went to Kuya Sam's house (rich kid talaga!). Out of the 6 houses there, only one has people inside it. The others? Don't ask me. If ever I'd get a house, I'd prolly follow Tatay's advice to get a condo.

The travel time home is 1/4 of our travel time going there. Geez. It only took us 45 minutes. And that even include the time going to Kuya A's house. I don't know if Kuya A drives fast or the road is THAT clear. Either way, I am happy that we had a good time and we got home safely.

We are lucky bastards to be friends with Kuya Sam--you hella hafta meet him in person. GREAT FUNNY GUY! Up here!

Here are pictures of the four of us. We did not take pictures to be very neat--we don't want any evidence.

Kuya Sam

Kuya Adrian (Imagine this guy giving advices about love and all that)

Me and Alix
P.S.

My blog is not any evidence. This is a blog, Just a blog! PERIOD!

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Am I sexually harassed?

This is not a very serious post. You don't have to panic and call the police after reading this. >:)

On our way to Manila, Euniece (my cousin) and I rode the Baliwag Transit. As I pay 100Php to Manong Konduktor, I noticed that he was staring. I thought that there was a problem and asked, "Kuya, may problema po ba? (Kuya, is there any problem)" Instead of answering, he winked. *goosebumps* O_o If that did not creep you up, her's more...

When he was about to go to the other passengers, he whispered, "Kung bata-bata lang ako niligawan na kita.(If I am younger than my age, I would definitely woe you)"

Geeezzzz. A 60+ y/o manong telling me these things?!! What is happening to the world?!!!

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On our way to Bulacan, agaiu, we rode the Baliwag Transit. Due to lack of seat, I had no choice but to sit beside the driver and Euniece at the back. When the Kuya Konduktor was about to do his job, he told me to wave my hand because I was their muse. Meh. :/

After issuing tickets and collecting fare, he sat next to me and started the conversation.

Kuya Konduktor: Kapatid mo ba yung nasa likod (Is the girl at the back your sister?"
J: Hindi po...pi-- (No, cou--)
KK: Gelpren mo ba? Gelpren? (Is she your girlfriend?)
J: Naku, hindi po! Pinsan ko po yan. (Oh no! She's my cousin)
KK: Ah.. Laki kasi ng boses mo pre eh. (Ahh. Big voice you got there, bro)

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Just WTF?! Hahaha. Whatta experience!

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GUYS. IN DIRE NEED OF HELP.

Okay, when I joined the Samsung Galaxy shit, this boy helped me in promoting my effin entry. I am returning the favor.

Kevin Cortez and Celine Villafuerte

That's him in a hot maroon V-neck shirt. Woah! Damit pa lang pang Block King na. and of course his partner to be the Block Queen.

So Lezzzzgo and start liking this photo!

For hotness and glory!
For free food and fame!

Like this photo by visiting this page. And clicking the like word. Got it? One click would mean so much to me!  

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Post Crossing



I am a Post Crosser because I joined Post Crossing. hihihi.

For more information visit this site.

Last Thursday, I bought 5 post cards to be sent to 5 countries: Taiwan, Netherlands, Germany, Russia, and USA. And on Monday, hopefully, tatay will send them on air already. I hope the persons I send this post cards to are kind that they would enter my code so I can be a finalist in receiving post cards too!

Effin resolution. Loser webcam
I wish Id receive post cards from the European continent, especially from Italy. Haha! But any country would do. Below is my profile; I wrote down my preferences when it comes to postcards. BUT, I am not maselan, therefore any post card will also do. :)

Lookie here, it's my profile. May AV na ako ngayon!
This activity is going to be a lot of excitement and at the same time a lot of waiting! Thanks to my old good friend, Michelle Santos, for the idea. :)

P.S.

If you are in any part of the world and you are reading this post right now, do not hesitate to send me post cards. hihihi. I would gladly welcome and collect those. Comment you're email address on this post if you wanna know my address.

Let those post cards flying!

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Buffet is Love!

It's past 9 in the morning and I am on my way to Manila. Tomorrow is a new start--2nd sem of my 2nd year in college. I thought I am too early to leave Bulacan, but it turned out to be that the day was just enough for the break's last hoorah!


My Ninong X (he is a very confidential person) brought us (Kuya Ryan and I) to this unique restaurant--a Hot Pot to be exact. It's called King One (Rotary Hot Pot). I've been to a hot pot before, Tong Yang Hot Pot, somewhere in QC. But unlike the usual market fashion, King One is differently designed (kahit right after nakakita ako sa MOA ng ganun ding resto)--the raw food is on a rotating machine, like the ones we see on factories but a little smaller and less complicated.
King One is located along Macapagl Highway, across the World Trade Center
The food here is cooked by submerging it into boiling soup. Waiting is very essential when dining in hot pots, so don't go if you are too hungry or at least eat something na pantawid gutom. The method is very healthy since we don't talk about cooking by means of oil here.

Most of the food are in the form of ball--fish ball, meat ball, mozzarella fish ball, squid ball, oyster ball, meat sandwich ball, many other balls (but not the ball-ball you know. hehehehehe >:P). There are also in the form of meat--lamb, bacon, beef maki, etc--vegatables--water crest, kangkong, different mushrooms, etc--fish--fish lips, fish cake--and shrimp.

Fish Cake (It looks tasty but looks can be deceiving!)
What I ate are mostly meat, Id suck eating those seafood! Nakikita ko palang sila, nangingiwi na ako! Ninong ordered for a special egg sauce, which is fine. I think it's too salty. I suggest you try pork tito! It looks nasty but when you start chewing it, it's like chewing bubble gum that is meat flavored. Anyway, it's a buffet for 479 Php (drink-all-you-can included). It's a no-no for a frugal student like me, but what else can I say? I had this unique experience for FREE! How cool is that?!

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Scribble my name, Make me happy

I love seeing my name being posted on many surfaces...

Lookie here, I am a member of a Secret Society without me knowing! How cool is that?!
I am one of my featured friend's featured friend. How cool is that?!
I am someone else's inspiration to her quotable quote! How cool is that?!
I am even mentioned secretly. hihi. :3 How sweet is that?!

Now, are you brave enough to make me happy and put my name atop of your <3?

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Scott Pilgrim vs. The World

Who said video games are over? 
4.5/5

If I were asked to make a review, Id probably choose this movie! It's another film based on a graphic novel series Scott Pligrim by Bryan Lee O'Mailley (ngayon ko lang nalaman!). 

You guys might have seen Michael Cera on many other movies as nerd/gay (in Juno) teenager who is a loser to love. In this movie, he is different--a shaggy haired bassist of their band Sex Bomb Omb. The only thing not changed is his HOTNESS. hihi.

The movie opens with a video game theme song. It's kinda turn off at first (especially to those who don't have any idea about this, like me) but like what I always advice: Don't judge anything until you finish it. The plot of the movie is realized only when you get to the middle of the movie. Initially, I thought this would be two hours of nonsense...like 'what have i gotten myself into?' As mentioned earlier, the film is based on a graphic novel and the good thing about it is it was a comic-ish movie. Plus, the video game theme is a hit--like how it was when it was first released. I love it!

As much as I don't want to spoil you, I will tell you the movie's plot (para sa inyo rin 'to!). Scott (Michael Cera) will fight the League of Seven Exes for Ramona Flower's (Mary Elizabeth Winstead) love. Awwww. Look at how romantic the plot is (though, it wasn't boldly illustrated in the movie). Kudos to the writers!


This is Ramona Flowers. Scott's dream girl. I love her style. Colored hair. In the movie, she dyed her hair three times! Pink. Blue. Green. It's cool that it doesn't look bad after all--like jeje bad. Ramona's a bad guy magnet. hihi. She dated 7 EVIL guys (me isang tomboy na naligaw, considered guy pa rin). :/  I love Lucas Lee and Todd Ingram out of her 7 exes!




    Lucas Lee                                                                          Todd Ingram


Todd Ingram played Daniel Shaw in Chuck, just so you know. hehe.


That is Knives Chau over there. She is Scott's 17-year-old girlfriend when the movie opened. I love her character! That's why, without the exemption of Cera's hotness, I hated Scott for two-timing her! That's a scene where Scott breaks up with Knives for Ramona. Meh. Kawawang bata :/ BUT...she didn't stop wanting Scott--she's a Scottaholic. hehe. Her ways of getting Scoot back is funny because it's what teenagers do..silly. She dated Young Neil (one of Scott's friend), colored her hair blue (like Ramona's). If you'd think Ramona's one stupid teenager you are WRONG. She fought with Scott in the midst of his battle against the exes. She's one hella fighter!!! And her greatest line would be: "Go for her Scott, you'd been fighting for her all along." Awwwwww. ASIAN LOVE! I wish I'd be like her.

Here's a link to the trailer! Enjoy!

P.S.

If you want a good laugh and a kilig: watch this!

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Extras

hello there reader.

it's 2.12pm. Outside the sky is dark with a hint of continuous rain (the thought pains me. I hate rain). I just sneezed--I am allergic to dust and chocolate. I am in front of Torch which is in front of our broken desktop computer. I am waiting for my cousin's reply, hoping for a positive answer. I didn't take a bath cos mum told me not to since I am all sweaty after cleaning our room. I just finished crying and eating the dark-chocolate flavored Choco Mucho which I got from our store. I am torn between going to taal and not going to taal. I haven't done anything productive the whole sembreak except for a couple of spy missions with my friends, good movies on the tv, date with Alex, and the one time chit-chatting with my idol--the rest is a boring history.

i planned so many things before sembreak, and none of them took place. Well, maybe some, those small almost unnoticed tasks that is pat of a routine. Those extra-unroutinary tasks were merely started but does not have its conclusion yet.

eversince the break started, nanay assumed that ill clean the house. and i did, every once in a while. More time on the internet.
i promised J that ill help him out with his portfolio. and i did, i conceived the idea it just haven't materialized. More time on the internet.
i told myself that i should finish Chuck, read Eco and myth, finish articles. and i did, im on episode 12 of Chuck, 0 Eco, started myth, and started my articles, none finished. More time on the internet.
I wanted to do workouts and build muscles and abs, and i did. There were 2 mornings in my record that I did push-ups and sit-ups. More time on the internet.

Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that my break is a big crap cos it's not. I needed this. I need time to relax, I need time to feel bored and worthless cos it's there where I get the inspiration to do
the extra-unroutinary tasks.

Last night, I prayed:

"God, please guide me, so that i can accomplish the things i needed to do for the day."

And guess what? He did.

This morning after watching The Postman (which is, by the way, another Kevin-Costner/Great movie), I went straight to my room to go net surfing. POOF! The computer isn't working. FML. The first thing that came to my mind was J. Of course, who is the one person (except for mom that'd always keep some parts of the pc) capable of destroying my internet life--MY BROTHER. I checked everything, and then I saw unplugged lines inside the CPU.The pakielamera that I am, I tried connecting them. POOF. Before there were some things displayed on the monitor, the next thing I know there were none. FML for the second time! I told tatay everything... J came home. Hallelujah! Tatay alked to J. But he denied that it was his fault. FML for the third time! And then I sang, "You can put the blame on me. You can put the blame on me. You put the blame on me." yaddah yaddah. Just because I was seen to be the last one to use doesn't mean I broke it! Tatay goes, "Susunod mong sisirain e yung TV. Sinira mo yung laptop. Sinira mo yung cellphone. Ngayon yan naman." FML for the fourth time! I am </3. I can't take it when it's my tatay that's angry. You see, he's the most patient guy I know. And making him angry is like commiting murder!

Yes, God asnwered my prayers. I don't have my oldie computer--NO good internet connection which means it's time to do the extra-unroutinary things. God sent more extra answers: 1.) efficiently utilize the things you have and take good care of them; 2.) don't ask for the things you don't immediately need. it has their own time; 3.) use our time wisely, as the golden motto goes, "Time is gold." Because not everyone is given this privilege; 4.) be humble enough to take blames--even if you know it wasn't your fault--God is a just God.

P.S.

I pray,

"God, pls send someone to fix the computer. A few more days and I'm back to Manila. I'm pretty sure my brother and tatay needs it."


Now, it's fixed. Guess who's the guy? J.

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Hi, mom!

This post is for my mom, for myself, and for the boys out there.


Hi, mom! 

I am sorry that I disappointed you a million-gazillion time. 
I am not a perfect daughter. But I know you deserve me, and I am going to prove that.
I will make you proud with the things I do. And will apologize with the things I can't do.
Once you told me to finish college before entering a boyf-girlf relationship. I promised you I will, but i did not.
I almost got kicked out of school because i fell in love so early and too stupid enough to publicly show affection when it's taboo.
He and I broke up and it nearly tore me apart and not be able to bring myself together.
But I managed. Maybe it's in our genes. Mana siguro talaga ako sayo.
I hope that you'd give your trust back to me. Cos this time I will fulfill my promise with a little add ons!

Hi, me.

Pls, don't be an easy-to-get chick because you're not. Someone out there deserves you. Be patient. Maybe, the one is a mix of Ramon-Chuck-Chuck. hihihi.

Hi, boy.
I got one question. Are you willing to wait? hihi <3

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Silver Linings


It's been...what? One year, four months, 7 days, and 6hrs since he and I broke up. And here I am with a slight progress of learning the art of let go, move on.

Meh. :/ First love never dies, they say. I have heard my friends say, "Ok lang yan. First mo kasi. Mahirap nga yan!" Yeah, it's freakin' hard to not think of him, not talk about him, not dream of him, not reminisce every single sweet moment that we've shared, not stalk his Facebook profile (kahit 'di kami friends), not look whenever I hear his name. I get so scared sometimes that I'd be stuck and not be able to move on. I don't want to be like Chuck Bartowski who dealt with his heartbroken feeling for FIVE YEARS! Not that I do not do anything to move on, you see, I have done everything I could, JUST TO MAKE A PROGRESS--even a little.

A few days back, I was inspired to blog again! (maybe, out of boredom...NOT!) And lookie what I found:


And I while ago, I was planning to make an evolution collage of myself and I found our HS picture (the first picture) during the festival for the saints, when butterflies in my stomach are flying freely, happily and in love-ly (pinilit?). Anyhow, the good thing is...tanananananannanananantanan! I got tired of stalking his and his new girlfriend's profiles. May nagagawa rin palang maganda ang katamaran! And, sobrang paulit-ulit na kacheesy-han I can't take it any longer. I mean, seriously, is there anything new you can think of? It's none of my effin business, I know...pero IBA NAMAN! It's for their own FB-status' sake, if you know what I mean. :/ I wish they'd make it private (as in todong private) so that i'd no longer get some access. You know, to make my life a little easier. He already made it easier not talking to me--like i have some kind of invisible cape around me. Well, not really since umasa pa ako. Blame it to the quote: "If it's not okay, it's not over." E applicable lang ata yun sa In-A-Relationship Status. Blah.

Anyways, ever since we broke up I told myself I'll make myself GREAT. Ugghh, not really. Di ko talaga sinabi yun. hehe. I let the flow carry me wherever. So I started training Judo and writing article for the Commerce Journal--busying myself with so much stuffs. I regained my pamilee's trust and love back. I met different, gorgeous guys, made friends with some of them (i meant flirt, eh flirt ako eh. chos). I became close with my blockmates, IAM in particular. I saw Ramon Bautista in person--ang aking super idol! I made my family proud of me and by that I gained confidence.  I lost someone precious but gained MORE THAN what I lost. I am grateful to the Lord.

I thought I was strong enough, until...


I saw this. I broke down. :( It torn my heart into a million pieces.  <3 It brought back the tears from the past. T_T I promised myself that i wouldn't have any boyfriend cos I'm waiting for him, but not this time. I am thankful to Mark Zuckerberg (kaya gagawan ko ng justice ang review ko sayo), I found, yet, another silver lining--stop waiting, start walking--thank you FACEBOOK! It's time to get going, head straight to my destination.

I am too thankful to the Lord for giving me such blessings--my pamilee, my family, Ate Ericka, Iam friends, and people who sympathized. Not only to them, but to this experience. 

I am taking back my first statement, maybe this is part of the art of let go, move on. I have progressed not little, but big enough that I am still here, and I am HAPPY. Besides, I already played PvZ--and I hella finished it!



Tragedies would always come, but you know what? You just have to be patient finding the silver lining. Just like Chuck, five years is not so long if the woman for you is Sarah Walker. :)

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I'm the Greek-shiz

While my brother was keeping to himself the computer I decided to read Sam's Edith-Hamilton-Greek-myth book.

THE 12 GREAT OLIMPIANS

Zeus

Zeus, O mighty Zeus.
struck me with your bolt
so that I would have the guts
to face the storms of my life.

Hera


I plead to you, 
Oh Hera, goddess of marriage, 
that you bestow me a partner 
and that our binding would last a lifetime

Poseidon


Poseidon, god of the sea,
I pray to you, with your mighty will,
calm the storm in my heart,
and command the sea to rise me up
in the heavens.

Hades


The Horrible not the Terrible god,
if you'd allow,
give the unjust a chance to be just.
Before taking them.

Athena


Guide me in life's battles, Minerva.
Share with me
Your divine prowess
in conceiving fight plans.

Apollo


Sing to me, Apollo.
Show me light.
Heal me by truth.
Kill the Phyton
that strangles my breath.

Artemis


The hunter, show me my wild side.
Bring me closer to nature.
Hunt down the monsters inside me.
If it be time, slay me by your silver arrow.

Aphrodite


Aphrodite with beauty
that is beyond all beauties
in the earth combined,
make me laugh out
all the sorrows that inflict me pain.

Hermes


Hermes! Oh Hermes!
God of Commerce, fly us to success.
With your wings let us travel roads of glory.
Send our plea to the gods in Olympus.

Ares


Ares, god or war.
Order your vultures to scrape off
the decomposing and help the living.
With Eris and Enyo, wage war
to the savages who destroy peace.

Vulcan


Vulcan, build me an armor
that would protect me
from enemy's anger.
So that killing me would be
a mistake he wishes to make.

Vesta


I thank you, o ye Vesta,
for carrying me to the family
I belong to.

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Date

Good morning! It's 8:11am on my clock.  My digital clock change numbers so fast, which I could barely notice while surfing the internet. I am waiting for 1pm--to see you.


I haven't seen my old good friend/cousin since...last week. Pero parang forever na rin kami di nagkita at nagkausap kasi we talked for half a minute! Bitin yun! And I miss hanging out with this guy--SO MUCH! After graduating from highschool, Alex.

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That was supposed to be my post, but plans change and so is my mind.

We watched Coming Soon, he paid for the food and for the tokens as well...


I only get the chance to know Alex when I entered High school (we are cousins but we don't usually talk whenever there's a family gathering). We are just one section per level, so don't be surprised if everybody almost knows everyone else. Alex and I are both 'nobodys' back in HS, as the saying goes, the birds with the same flock together. We became good friends/cousins. From the start I already knew that we would get along easily, and we did.

How's that?

1. We are blood-related.
2. Alex is not a show-off.
3. We both have a good sense of humor.
4. Alex can be an utu-uto sometimes.
5. Alex is a good listener.

Let us elaborate:

1. Though we are second cousins and there are minute related genes in our system, still THERE ARE. That's why it's easy to be around him; no ayees and yiheees.

I am more of the opposite sex, you know. Don't get me wrong, I am not into liking girls which means I am not a tomboy. I mean I move and dress like a boy. I can relate to their kalokohan. I love listening to their stories--laughtrip! I tend to find girly sheez less exciting.

2. Alex is corner type of boy. If you're looking for him, he is nowhere but the in corners. Haha! No, that's not what I intended to say. What I really meant is that he is meek, though it's not prominent somewhere on his face. I can tell you that he is humble. Alex wanted to keep a low profile and I joined the party! You know high school--full of drama just to get somewhere near stardom. Not going to lie, I used to be one of 'em (eww) until I finally realized how fun it is to be nobody. You can do the most normal, and craziest things without people making any issues out of it.

3. Humor is #1 on my list. If you're itching to be 1 inch close to me, be funny!

Alex has a great sense of humor, our thoughts jive! As if they're one. Of course, with Ivan in the trio. Anu ba! Mukha pa lang funny na! Chos. Dagdagan mo pa ng funny thoughts--WINNER! Nah. kidding with the face, Alex is way way hotter than Empoy kaya! Hihi. Kidding aside, he is gwapo talaga! Hey, I'm not joking, I'm serious! I don't get it! Why do people find it hard to understand when I say Alex is gwapo and so is Ramon Bautista?! Matatalino lang talaga nakakarealize nun. Naaaaahhh. I think their inner personality is beyond what's outside--making them 100x over gwapo-er than Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt.

4. I love Alex for being too gullible, and I love being myself for being to witty and clever. But the best are the BENEFITS. >:)

5. Have you seen those big ears? God purposely gave them to him so that I can share everything to him. I am naked to him (not what you think). I can tell almost everything and get honest advices in return. (I wish I also have that kind of ability.) Nowadays, honesty is what we all need.

Ever since we started College, Alex being in Baguio and I being in Manila made it harder to bond. I miss him like hell! So every vacation time, we never missed to find a day/s to see each other. It's really touching that the feeling became mutual now. It's used to be one way, my way. Lagi na lang ako, ako ako. Puro na lang ako, ako, ako.   

If ever I am going to have my man someday, I would be happy to have someone like Alex (but with slight face and body modifications, pls Lord).

P.S.

Dear reader, I am still your average angel. Don't be fooled by what you read. hihi :>

1

MISSION #2: ICE PRINCESS

Good job spies! You have completed your second mission. See you around, XYZ/ABC.


Twas my first time, yesterday, to go ice skating. I was like, “Gagawin ko ba talaga ‘to?” Seriously, what am I thinking while paying 300 bucks for an unlimited pass? GAWD.

In that photo are (L-R) Sam, Michelle, Ikee, and yours truly. I managed a wacky asian-peace shot cos I wanted to show-off my courageous self to the hot photographer. hihi

I didnt expect that ice skating is going to be torture to my feet, specifically to my ankle! And yeah, to my butt too. I fell four times! Geez. I was not skating on ice, more like walking on ice! BUT I’m going to give myself a big THUMBSUP cos I’m not a total fail. I tried and conquered my fear. I enjoyed falling in the process; however, there’s still frustration, if you know what I mean.

In times like this you’d truly know who your TRUE friends are. On my first step on the ice, I already know who they are. :)


2

Currently

"I found God on the corner of first and Amistad."


 
My itunes is currently stuck to The Fray. I woke up one day wanting to listen to their songs. It has been a while since I've listened to them. Although I became a RnB fanatic, I do not forget the bands that made me fall in love with "cool" music.

Isaac Slade (thanks Wikipedia), the vocalist/pianist of the band, has this style of singing that would automatically catch your attention. Parang cursive writing, this time cursive singing. He is the epitome of KALBONG HOT! hihi.

Here are the songs in my itune, which I recommend to you:


These are my favorite songs among The Fray's. Currently listening to: How to save a life...

Their songs are not just melody and rhythm like most hip-hop songs, they have substance--one of the reasons I love them.

To know more about them here is their very cool site!

1

FIERCE FACE ON

I hope those who'll read this post are worthy.



I am grateful that some people are there to protect me from vicious vultures that feast on human remains/decomposing.
BUT, I’m not yet DEAD. Why feast on me, when I’m still fighting and hanging on (if youre thinking of THAT, pls get a life)?
Don’t worry, I still love you, my friends. And I will pray for you no matter what besides we are friends, are we not? hihi :)